Words That Evaporate

I do not want to talk
It'll be of no use
Words will evaporate in the air
before they get to you

The lights are disturbing
It's too bright to see
The dark is scary
It keeps hiding me

I want to hide
In the heart of the world, in yours
I want to scream
At the stupid thoughts of yours

I do not want to write
A sentence without your name
I do not want to write
Then rip up the whole page

I stare at the words
As they float in the air
What have I done?
Shouldn't they evaporate?

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I lie awake
With all the tiredness of the world
With all the feelings left untold

I lie awake and stare
At the lies I made
For you to read
And for me to erase.