I often get into this emotional mood, when I think of all the people that I've met and haven't met and the people who I will never meet again. I complain about things, and I say how much I miss certain people and certain events, and as usual, I talk non-stop. Of course, the only victim here would be my friend Mona, who always listens and endures all those intense feelings.
I am having one of those emotional moments now. I still miss Al Amal Camp and the people there, and I still can't stop talking about it. I have gathered memories of a lifetime in one week, it is only natural that I would miss it.
Today, we had the Ship of the World Youth (SWY) girls coming to our university. As part of the Student Council, I was responsible -alongside other members- for welcoming them and giving them a tour around the university and introducing them to our Emirati culture. Most of the girls were Japanese and I've spent lovely hours with them discussing all kinds of things, including celebrities and dating. Then it was goodbye, and as usual, I secretly lied to myself saying that I will probably meet them again, just to calm myself down and be less emotional about it, but I know that is more likely not to happen.
This got me thinking of all the great people I have met once and never again. They are probably people that I can't help but think about almost everyday. It gets kind of depressing when you think that maybe your personality isn't as great or effective as theirs, and that they probably won't even remember your name in a few days.
I know that this is life, and I know I'm being way too emotional. I tried to change that in me, and to have a "stronger heart" and skip all the weak emotions. But today, while driving back from the university, I decided that these emotions are what is making me have a "strong heart". If having emotions were so bad then God wouldn't have given them to us. Emotions are a blessing which keeps as alive, and human.
This is who I am, I love people, and they mean so much to me. I often get disappointed, but somehow that doesn't stop me from being around them and continue to love them.
Have a good evening all,
- Sana H.
u have a big white heart Sana <3
ReplyDelete" It gets kind of depressing when you think that maybe your personality isn't as great or effective as theirs, and that they probably won't even remember your name in a few days."
ReplyDeleteNever belittle yourself, you've probably made an impact on these people and I assure you,in years to come, they will not forget you.
Stay in touch with these people, you never know when you will get a chance
Hamda: 7ayateee thanks <3
ReplyDeleteM Jacob: Thanks a lot for your words! It's not that I belittle myself, but those thoughts cross my mind sometimes.
your feelings are normal, atleast i think thay are (A)
ReplyDeleteI often find myself thinking of the same thing, I'm not really that social, but I still love people, w I hate it when I've met someone and carried a conversation with them, while knowing that I would probably never see the person again. I guess it's just human nature, we're social creatures =)